My Love and Strength.
To be honest, I believe that I am one of the strongest woman I know. I grew up with a family, not just my parents, who raised us all to be tough cookies. Unlike a lot of people nowadays, we’re not perfect, but we’ve all grown up with morales. We’ve developed our own outlooks on life, however we were all taught to respect each other. Whether we like what we hear, or not - we’ve grown up to take it all of constructive criticism.
Today, on my way home from a family dinner, I was riding in the car with my sister. She played “Tattoos on This Town,” by Jason Aldean. We grew up on all sorts of music, including country. However, tonight, she was telling me about the music video of this song. A couple who was (planning on) getting married, the boyfriend joins the military, and at the end of the music video, she gets every military spouse’s dreaded knock on the door.
For those of you who don’t know me. I lost love at a very young age. I was a junior in high school, and well, my first love had passed away. That time, was one of the toughest times in my life. It was dark, but someone once told me, “God wouldn’t put you through anything he knew you couldn’t handle.”
Thinking about the relationship I’m in now, makes me feel prepared. During that dark time in my life, I was young and pretty much scared to love again. I had a relationship after he had passed away, and before the one I’m in now. I used to ask myself, “Why would I want to put myself through a relationship where I knew I ran the risk of losing another love?” Sometimes I still wonder WHY God brough this man into my life. Haha, no offense. I’ll be honest to say that I have never been happier. “God wouldn’t put you through anything he knew you couldn’t handle.”
Tonight, I thought about the same thing. God forbid it happen, but I don’t know what would happen if I ever got THAT knock at the door.
I thought about this man, I call my Fiance. :) Everyone knows it hasn’t been long, but I know there are people who think we’re TOO young for the next step. Think that we’re not ready. But hey, those older than me, are always going to think “You’re too young to do this…” or “You’re too old to be doing that…”
Let me tell you, that WE are ready. WE believe that we can be just as successful as any other married couple in the world, if not better. We’re not as nieve as others may think we are, but in the short amount of time that we’ve been together, we know that we’re doing this for all the right things. We love each other very much. Our relationship is built off of more than love and trust. “Commitment, Communication, and Compromise.” Even though we’re going to be married, he’s still going to continue his career in the Marine Corps. As I support him by keeping our home together, he’ll be supporting me while I work and focus on school as a full-time student. A family is in the future, however we discussed that we’re not ready for that, yet. If a blessing just so happens to come sooner than expected, we’d take responsibility of our actions and raise our family, just like we were raised.
To My Family (Jelly):
I have never been happier. I know it was a bit of a shocker knowing that I was going to marry someone you all have barely even met. But I promise that you’ll learn to love him. It’s not that he doesn’t want to spend time with you/us all, it’s just his career. We all know how that is, especially because we have come from a HUGE military family in every single branch.
To my Mom and Dad:
I love you and I will always be your little girl. I know that I am more of the rebellious child, but I haven’t lost my morales. I have, and will always love and respect you. Thank you for being tough on me when I was being stubborn. Without you, I wouldn’t be here today. I know that sometimes I can be hard headed, but I promise you that I will not disappoint or let you down. I’m growing into a woman, and I know that’s sometimes hard to believe, but in the long run, we’re going to help take care of you. We love you.
To His Family (Oscar):
Thank you for being so welcoming. Thank you all for being kind and warm-hearted individuals. Although Texas is a different world than the one I grew up in, I’m glad to say that you all remind me a lot of the family I grew up in. Thank You, and we love you :)
To Oscar:
I cannot wait for us to exchange our vows on April 20, 2012 and then renew them in front of everyone before our next move! Thank you for being a very supportive, kind-hearted, and loving man. We’ve had our ups and down, but we’ve grown stronger as a couple, but most of all - as individuals. You know that I love you very much, and you know that I’ll always be here supporting you no matter how near or far you are. You are amazing and I love the connection we have. Even though we’re THOUSANDS of miles a part, our connection just as strong, and has become stronger since you’ve left almost seven months ago. I love you and HAPPY (early) VALENTINES DAY! :)
